What God?

I hate god. I hate the idea of one. I hate people that live every moment of their lives by his "word". To me god is an idea that enables people to do whatever they want whenever they want to do it because they can be forgiven. This to me seems like an option people to use not take responsibility for anything. They use the idea to explain anything that cant be explained. They fill the gaps of the unknown with their allah, I don't claim to be perfect, I have made many mistakes in the past, so for me to claim that I have never blamed someone else would make me a hypocrite. One thing i do not do is use god as an excuse. This day and age has seem some of the greatest minds of humanity come and go, I'm talking about the past thousand years. Minds that looked into the unknown and used their understanding of the workings of the world and attempted to explain the great mysteries. Guess what, they didn't look at their god, at his "all knowing wisdom", they looked at science, the natural order of things. Shakespeare used his magical melody of words to enlighten and inform the masses. Gutenberg, who introduced the printing press, albeit he printed the bible, he introduced the idea of mass distribution of literature. Einstein, who gave the world the outstanding special and general theories of relativity, not to mention helped create the deadliest weapon ever made by man. Charles Darwin, the man who studied animals and discovered evolution, currently the prevailing theory on how we got here. Not gods garden of eden where two humans gave rise to every human on earth today. Slowly yet surely the gaps are starting to fill in, expanding our understanding about the way things work. The idea of a god is an ancient one, one that needs to go away in order to expand human potential to the maximum. In this apathetic atheists point of view people need to realize that god does not control the universe, he doesn't forgive you, he doesn't condemn you, he didn't create Adam and eve. We created him, in a time when our minds were filled with fear and wonder about this great unknown place called our reality. We put our hands in his "great plan". To be able to hope for something, to be able to live knowing we weren't alive out of a random coincidence. People think god exists, why? Sure I live a good life, i am fed, I'm sheltered and i have good friends and family. Then i look at places like Africa, where death, destruction, starvation and plague are the standard. I don't believe god exists because he allows bad people to live, and innocent people to perish. Now, not because I am an American, but for other reasons, this for me is an exceptionally hard subject to touch on. Nine eleven, two thousand and one. I could go on for hours but I'm not, I'm going to make one point on this. Three thousand Americans died because the "terrorists" flew two planes into the world trade center. This in itself is not the shocker to me. People die, people get killed. To me the problem was these guys did it under the impression that was their way into heaven, that's what their god wanted. Now what seems to have happened here is that 4 guys flew 2 planes into 2 towers, killing 3000 innocent people so they could go to heaven and their god? The math doesn't add up here, if there was a god, something like that would never have happened. Killing innocents in your name is not the greatest way to inspire faith in people. My faith in god, my loyalty to him, my love for him, died that day with 3000 other people. It would seem to me that we are indeed alone. It was an awakening to me, it made me realize that there are far superior explanations as to how we got here. Not one of them having to do with god. Do I hate god? yes, yes i do, very much so. I hate the idea of him, I hate that people will kill for him, I hate the idea that he is almighty. To me god is no more real than the devil or the goddamned boogeyman. So I am stating, once this god delusion is out of the way, We can finally move ahead in our enlightening of not only the universe around us, but ourselves as well

An Atheist's Twisted Point of View

Allah. Bhagwan. Yahweh. They all mean one thing, one thing every human being on earth is aware of it in one name or another; God. The idea of a divine being that controls every action is the universe from the creation and destruction of life, to supernovas and ultimately the creation of existence. Now at the major expense of making me look like an ass, how stupid are people in this so called advanced society. Yes this piece of writing is going there, so if you dont want to be offended, go read some less thought provoking crap on some other site. Anyone who knows me knows I am an atheist, that is I dont believe in the existence of god. I have my personal set of beliefs and I dont try to preach to anyone, I show the same restraint I wish to be showed, I hate preachy bullshit filled missionaries intent of recruiting me to their religion. So in the real world I keep a mutual respect to other people, I try not to discuss religion with anyone as it is one of the taboo subjects you dont discuss.( unless of course there is whiskey and tequila involved, then I become an avid member of the atheist movement.) This is my vent, so im going to do it. Now most other atheists, they bash the organized religions for exploiting the people and profiting on their divine intentions. Myself, i too have a problem with this system of buying your way into a place called heaven where you have all your desires. Religions exploit people's fears of the real world and turns them into metaphors for explaining the unknown actions of the world. Turning rational thinking humans into god fearing drones of a religion intent on controlling the masses. People are perfectly capable of making their own set of moral values. One true point opposing this is that people are panicky the larger the group gets, incapable masses with no order or control. While this may be true it is done as a fear of god. If that obstacle were removed, a healthier mind would focus on improvement of fellow humanity. Organized religion promotes an all knowing god that accepts all his followers, if you follow that god. Hop on over a continent or two, and you have a different religion, with a different god, who has different rules, different ways of living. Now to them you are a blastphemer, an outsider who lives his life wrong, conflict ensues. The best example of this is the crusades, the holy wars fought during the middle ages between two different religions. Killing each other because their religion told them the other was wrong. That is fucking ridiculous, no false god is going to make me kill my neighbor because their beliefs are wrong. These people were conditioned to find something wrong in someone else because they werent the same as them. My exact view on organized religion is that they are leeches on society. Doing more harm than good, enforcing an ancient forgotten edict on a society long past the age when they could be scared by the shadows of the unknown. So if i had my way, no religion, anywhere. People would be educated in Science, ways of advancing the future of our species. Not ancient mind control techniques aimed at creating a being that controls your heart and your mind. My thoughts on this havent always been so, I used to be an avid believer of god, i went to church, paid my tribute, prayed and felt him watching me at all times. This was changed for me 9 years ago, my eyes were forced open and I learned the truth of our existence. I learned that believing in god was an inferior way of living. I opened my heart and brain to the ways never condoned by the church. It is a burden at times. It is much easier believing in a divine being, explaining all of life's mysteries. To be an atheist, knowing you are alone in the world is a burden that sometimes feels like its engulfing you. That is my truth, my sense of living. I am much happier now than i ever was living the way i do. So to put an end to this extremely opinionated work, I leave you with hopes you have an open heart and an open mind. God is not real, its is an essence created by our subconcious to cope with the unexplainable actions of the world. This was my rant on religion and its effects on society, for the next installment I will turn my attention to god itself, questioning his strange logic. Until then, farewell my faithful readers, which as far as I know is just me.

Looking into the Mirror

What is my role in this world? As i lay on my back thinking about my life and all the issues in my current mindset, i come to ask myself, whats my purpose, my role in this play called life. What is the path of discovery for myself, my fellow humans. The maze that has lead me to this point in life had until recently led me to what i believed to be right. All my life i foolishly claimed to be a product of my circumstances. I now dismiss that as foolish. My circumstances are a product of my actions. I have become aware of this the past year as I took a period of reflection of my life. More on that in a bit.
Life has embraced me with the most severe of ailments. Life is full of temptation, vices in which people become overly attached to. Of course many of these common ailments include chemical dependency, alcohol addiction, violence, power, greed, adultery and crime among many other paths of self destruction. My temptation, my vice shows its form in the most subtle, yet equally destructive form called emotional attachment. My inability to control my level of commitment has caused many errors in my life. I seem to become severely attached very easily to certain consequences. I say that because no good has yet come of it. I see it as a debilitation poisoning me from the inside out. I do not claim responsibility for this, my weakness, my lack of self control has allowed this monster to creep into the shadows of my heart. It seems this demon has a bind on my mind and heart, contaminating it with ideas and wild delusions.
My problem with emotional attachment is as such. I take what i have, turn it against me and destroy it. Throughout my life i have caused rifts and tears in the very fabric of my being with my selfish need to attach myself to people. I have at various points taken what i earned in friendship and love, and left it in a trail of hate and despair, leading back to me. I will give one example, unmatched in its simplicity, yet it was the apex of my ruining of something dear to me. I had two very dear friends, loving them as i love my own family. One in particular, we will call V. I developed a sincere friendship with V, caring for this person far above anyone else. I eventually developed these intense feelings for V, assuming that with time and patience i would find control and close myself to my hearts ache. Sadly that did not happen, due to my inability to control myself, control the situation, everything i had disappeared, friendships of many summers of innocence crashed around me in spectacular fashion. Instead of mutual parting and best wishes. She withdrew from my life with a trail of distrust and cowardice leading back to me. It has taken me a full year of contemplation and self discovery to realize that i wronged this person, along with many others in my life. This was the most recent of events. In the time since i have been studying myself in an objective manner, realizing that to salvage the threads of humanity i have left, i need to right the wrongs in my past.
I am not a religious man, i am very much an atheist. I cannot claim to believe i am doing this to salvage my soul. I am doing it in an effort to save my hope in myself for the future. Thoughts of forgiveness and love run through my mind in a race to drive the demon from my enclosed heart. Providing relief to the wounds that mark my emotional state of mind. In this i do hope that some people will better understand me, or at least gain some insight to my heart of hearts. Trials and tribulations have made my perceptions what they currently are, in all hopes on a way to recovery from my dependency on my attachment to my emotions.

p.s.
A most interesting thing happened to
me as i wrote this piece, in the middle
of my original draft, my computer
turned off on me, if i were a god fearing
person i would take it as a sign to not
do what i intend on doing with this
note.

A Look Into the Emptiness...

Life, a term used to describe every being capable of reproduction in the universe. we human beings have been on this planet for a little over a three million years, including all our predecessors in the evolutionary chain. We have made great strides in our evolution, from primates living in the trees as bottom rung on the food latter, to modern humanity, where we rule this planet with an iron fist. we are second to none in brain capacity. This has allowed us to develop into the most advanced species that has ever been on this planet, probably. I am plagued by modern society, people are self consumed with their empty lives. we live for our consumerism, we work for material goods, worrying about our singularly insignificant lives. For the most part people live for themselves and their close connections. Society merely worries about living in the moment, working to survive tomorrow, under the impression that we are the most important thing in the universe. People are so self centered on their lives, many are ignorant to the fact that there are billions upon billions of galaxies in the observable universe, it is mathematically impossible for life not to exist somewhere out there. perhaps this is the reason that i feel so detached from the majority of everyone i have ever known. That feeling of emptiness that i feel when i consider how insignificant my life is. That feeling of despair i get when i see people worried about their lives, more specifically their reaction to modern societies self obsession with maintaining a style of life that is spoon fed to us by massive corporations trying to train us. Seeing governments interact with each other, deciding whats "best" for the people under their orbs of influence. I get stomach sick, i was like that, and in many ways i still am, but i have learned to realize that in all our mighty so called power we are still an inferior species, on an insignificant planet, orbiting a sub standard star, in the medley of an average galaxy. There is nothing even remotely exceptional about our evolution, into these beasts with a higher brain function than the other life forms on this planet. Now back to my bashing of modern society. It engrosses me that nowadays many of the youth in our schools cant even name our own galaxy, that just blows my mind. Its mind boggling to me that humans in the 21st century, especially in 1st world countries don't know the name of our galactic street. But you know what people do know? I doubt that anyone in the entire world doesn't recognize coca cola or mickey mouse. A cartoon and a bad beverage are prioritized over teaching kids about the universe. Now there is another significant reason that we are just entering the human phase of universal expansion, and that is religion. Now as many of you know i am an atheist, so arguing against religion would be judgemental, so I'm not going to talk about religion at all, this is the only time this will be mentioned. Back to my argument, i realize this rant sounds like i am trash talking my fellow species, and I am.So much brain capacity we possess and we have the ability so expand our knowledge regarding our place, not only in the universe, but our place in, this planets diverse history. But no, people focus on their phones, who they text next, on their pets, on their next new dress, on which brand of liquor to get, white or wheat, crispy grilled, American or cheddar. On impressing the big boss, or trying to talk to your crush, on decisions so insignificant that there is no positive effect on humanity whatsoever. Now i realize that I'm making alot of points on our effect on the universe, now if that's too big i will do another example. Our big blue marble we call home. Earth has been here something over 4 billion years. Now I'm eyeballing it here, but I'm guessing in the planets history there has been about a billion different species of life, Numbers like that make me feel grossly insignificant in the scheme of things not regarding our lives. How concerned we are with our technological prowess, our luxurious lives mean nothing. In a million years humanity will most likely be gone, and there wont be a trace left that we were ever here. I cant think of anything else to complain about right now, i have to say writing this helped me vent alot of my built up frustration with the era in which i live, now this is purely a rant based on my personal opinion of where we are as a society and the effect it has on me. Now if someone reading this has a problem with my view, well too f**king bad. you chose to read it. If you liked it or agree with me then I'm glad it wasn't a waste of reading for you. I leave you with two of my favorite quotes regarding this subject. " You are not a beautiful and unique snowflake. You are the same decaying organic matter as everyone else, and we are all part of the same compost pile." and "We have no great war, no great depression, Our great war is a spiritual war, Our great depression is our lives"